I’m new to writing. I’m new to blogs. I’m new to being in touch with my emotions and body. I invite you to take a peak into my journey of self exploration and growth. I will post erratically based on my need and desire to share.
One day, I was threatened with loosing the ability to be part of the lives of my two wonderful children. To make things worse, the threat was coming from the person I used to hold closest, my wife. Any other parents out there? This one struck me at the heart. I could no longer ignore my realties and how far I have drifted from my true self. I ended up seeking legal advice the same day and filing for divorce not long after. Since then, a lot has happened. I had intense realizations. I have embraced conflict and fighting for myself. I am changed. I’m better now. I’m more myself than ever before. I’m thankful for the joy and love of my kids, therapy, me time, new friends, holotropic breathwork, nature, ice baths, meditation, tantra, the men’s group I’m part of and many more…
Today, I would like to address all the fathers out there grinding and struggling in loneliness. First of all, you are not alone! There are plenty of us out here. All you need to do is reach. Second, let yourself feel. Let yourself feel your emotions and your body. It’s OK if it hurts or it’s hard, it’s probably just a message. Listen. Take a deep breath and give yourself over to whatever it is you have been suppressing or ignoring. I know, I know, it’s easier said than done.
I heard this song during several Wim Hof breathwork sessions before. A few weeks ago I decided to look it up. As I was listening to her wonderful voice and message I started to weep. And not just once, I have since listened to this song over a hundred times and wept many times. To this day, I can just randomly start weeping when I hear it. It touched something deep and profound in me. I welcome it and embrace it, and I weep. I lay down on the ground and let the tears take me. This specific song may not touch you the way it did me. That’s OK, other songs may. In fact, I regularly find new songs now that make me weep and strike a chord with me.
I transitioned to listening to this song prior to my meditations. I visualize my 3 year old self and see my current self give him a big hug while I listen. And I let any emotions that come up just flow through me while keeping the above picture in my mind.
Let me know if you try the above method or if any parts of my post resonated with you. Which songs make you cry and why?
Blessings.
Journey to feel 